I realize that most of my blog posts are perky and upbeat, pretty carefree which fits because that’s my personality in real life. But every so often life happens and gets in the way of my cheery disposition. That’s what’s going on right now.
If you remember, a few weeks ago I asked for prayers for my family. I didn’t disclose what was going on but you all touched my heart with your willingness to pray for a situation you had no idea about. So here I am again, asking for prayers. This time, I feel comfortable disclosing that my lovely stepmom Starla was diagnosed with breast cancer. While it’s only been three weeks, they’re moving very quickly with treatment and she is having a double mastectomy this morning. I would greatly appreciate prayers for the surgeon, hospital staff and her recovery.
Starla is such an amazing woman and has a great attitude about this whole thing. Seriously, I would be afraid of her if I was cancer. She’s going to kick it’s butt. She has such an awesome attitude that I actually feel selfish for worrying. However, the truth is I am. But why? In my heart, I know that God has complete control of the situation; however, my head is still desperately trying to figure out what can I do?
I went for a run earlier this week and after 6 miles of prayer and reflection I realized that I can’t do anything. There is nothing on this Earth that I can do to make the cancer go away, to make sure her doctors give her the best care, to make recovery any easier. Nothing, zip, zilch, NADA. So instead of carrying around that burden, I turned it over to God and said, “Here. You take this worry. I can’t deal with it any more.”
And that’s exactly what I’ve done. So today, I will wait anxiously for the call that surgery went well, but I will try not to worry. I know everything is under control. I encourage you to remember that as well when an seemingly overwhelming situation presents itself to you.