Confessions of a Clean Eater

I think this post might be better titled ‘Confessions of a Not So Clean Eater’.  The past six weeks I have indulged a bit here and there.  Ok, I’ve indulged more than I care to think about.  It started with my anniversary weekend when I talked the hubster into sharing a bourbon glazed bread pudding.

The next day we stopped at this cute, kitschy fruit stand called the Tomato Place.  They had a bacon, avocado, tomato sandwich that I just haaaaaaaaaad to have.  All of the produce was homegrown and the wheat bread was made from scratch.  Really the only part not clean about this was the bacon but I’m sorry, you can’t have a BLT without bacon. Oh, and the fried okra.  Definitely not clean but oh so tasty!

Then my stepmom came into town and I made homemade chocolate chip cookies.  I’m proud to say that I only ate 2 of these total.  Did I mention they were made with Ghiradelli chocolate? I’m not going to lie, these were good.

I may have also had a daiquiri to celebrate the kickoff of my Marine Corps Marathon training.

The final straw was me making 3 & 1/2 dozen red velvet cupcakes for my class; it was my last class before I graduated and I was attempting to secure an A with my mad baking skills.  Of course I had to eat one….quality control anyone? (In case you’re wondering, grades posted Monday and I did get an A in that class. Was is because of the cupcakes? Who knows.)

Whew! I feel better getting that out in the open!  I know it’s really easy to fall into justification mode and I’m one of those people who can justify almost anything…It’s really bad.  Seriously, if you ever want to feel better about something, come talk to me.  An example of my justification: when I decided to eat the bourbon bread pudding, I justified it several times over by telling myself ‘it’s ok, it’s my anniversary’, ‘It’s ok, I raced in a duathlon this morning’, and finally ‘It’s ok, I need to gain some weight anyways’.  But by justifying things I’ve cheated myself out of what I love and introduced unnecessary guilt into my life.  And let me tell you, with the exception of the BLT sandwich, each time I ate the the food in those pictures I got sick to my stomach. After a year of clean eating, my body just can’t handle those foods.  Was it worth it? At the time, yes.  But the after effects of guilt and feeling sick? Nope, not all, no way Jose!

I know that most of you are reading this going, so what? You ate a few things with sugar in it – get over it.  What’s my point in spilling my not so clean secrets? There are several reasons 1.) Anytime I eat something not clean, I feel like I’m cheating on, well, myself.  2.) Nobody’s perfect and if you meet someone who seems perfect – look closer.  There are cracks and flaws there.  3.) Just because I may have had some moments of indiscretion doesn’t mean that I’ve ruined anything.

Reason #3 is one of those truths in life that applies to almost anything.  If you’re trying to lose weight, and have indulged when you shouldn’t have, don’t throw in the towel.  Just wipe your mouth off 🙂 and start over. It’s going to be ok!  So you’re training for an specific event and skipped a training run or scheduled day at the gym? Do you throw your hands up and say better luck next time? No! You get yourself back on track and finish the plan! The worst thing that you can do is embrace the self-defeating attitude of ‘I’ve already messed up so what’s the point in continuing?” No one ever said that living a healthy, active lifestyle would be easy but let me tell you it’s worth it!  You were created by God to do great things in your life but you have to be willing to work hard to accomplish those things!  “Rise up; this matter is in your hands. We will support you, so take courage and do it.” -Ezra 10:4

Question:  What do you do when you get off track?


22 thoughts on “Confessions of a Clean Eater

  1. you have the best perspective and attitude on the situation! we all have to treat ourselves at times. everything is about balance and moderation! plus, everyday is a fresh chance to start new!! i just forget what’s been done because theres nothing to change it, and work to improve for better the next day when im off track! :o) SPA love

  2. I just wanted to say Happy Anniversary, Jeanna! And to let you know how much I love reading about what you’re doing. Keep up the good work. Mr. Jimmy and I are so proud of you!!!

  3. treats are awesome! I agree with you! i just eat it, feel satisfied and move on. no sense in beating yourself up. get up and get a good workout in and own it! life is too short!

    • Thanks Mindy! Don’t worry, CE isn’t for everyone. It’s just awesome that you’ve committed to improving eating habits. A healthy lifestyle is all about balance and I know from your blog you do one heck of a balancing act!

  4. This reminds me of what are pastor says about starting something new like reading your bible daily. If you miss 1 day, you don’t have to read twice the next day, just jump back in. If 1 of us doesn’t eat for a day, we wouldn’t think we need to eat twice as much as the next day, hopefully. Guilt can be be used to make us healthier, both physically and spiritually, but it is also the devil’s favorite tool against us in our own minds.

    • I love that analogy from your pastor! You’re totally right about how guilt can make us stronger both physically and spiritually if we let it. Thanks so much for enjoying the chocolate chip cookies with me while you were here. 🙂 Love you!

  5. I think you are doing fabulously. I try to live like that all the time – like treats here and there make life more fun and our hard work so worth it. My problem is when I have the crash and burn days where I just give up and eat an ENTIRE jar or cream cheese frosting (so good, yet so bad).

    • Thanks Abby! Can I admit that I still have a small container of homemade cream cheese frosting in my refrigerator from when I made the red velvet cupcakes?! Every time I open the fridge it’s speaks to me; things like “Why don’t you like me anymore” or “Just one spoonful, nobody will know”. Luckily I’ve managed to stay completely out of it – so far.

  6. into all of our lives cute little red velvet cupcakes must fall!! i don’t stress about indulging every once in a while. i just make sure that those days are the exception, not the rule. the night before our relay last weekend i ate an entire box of swedish fish while waiting for the rest of the team to unload their gear from the car. i gotta be honest, i didn’t feel the least bit guilty about it!! enjoy a random indulgence, but get right back on track the next day!!

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